what do i get from my 21st birthday ...

i was reading an article in the paper today when i came across a familiar name ... i think he is my neighbors son or if not they just happen to have the same last name. anyhow ... apparently some people do actually take tourism seriously and they actually turn into tourist guides ... im in awe [ in other words im either too shallow or too arrogant or both. ]

and so this great MANILENEO ... him and his tours ... its been a while since ive had one these spur of the moment TICKLES ... so i go to his website and read his blogs ... dang i even post a message about it to my friends in our yahoo groups.

after doing a semi marathon of sex and the city and coming across a true to life 'tourist guide' ... i am inspired ... to write that is. and so i remember my old friend ... my one true being that no one knows about and no one cares about ... where i am my one and only fan. audience. critic. my blog.

as i read through the blogs ive posted in the past ... i am glad that i am who i am. single. fat. insecure. this critical being of mine is me. ive turned out who i want to be regardless of all the NUMEROUS slip ups ive had and im pretty sure il be having in my life.

to sum this up ... my 22nd birthday present to myself ... THE breakup. a LOT of extra pounds. and a new perspective of ME living my life.

the drama and randomness is incredible.

incredible. [ and i smile ]
posted by oddnumber at 09:13